I Lost My Love For Fashion & How I’m Trying To Get It Back

February 18, 2019

When I was little I was an absolute nerd for fashion. It was how I identified myself to the outside world. I started dressing myself from a very young age and in middle school, I rocked high wasted flair jeans, vintage scarves, and chunky knit ponchos. Why most girls my age were reading Tiger Beat I had a subscription to Vogue that I covered my wall in my bedroom in. I love everything about this livable art form. I loved the designers, the photographers the writers. Up until I was 18 or so I was infatuated with this industry.

As you might have read by now, during my freshman year of college I discovered this concept of combining my social justice heart with my passion for fashion in what is loosely termed sustainability. I was relieved that I found a way to combine what I loved with what gave me purpose and fulfillment. But recently I have noticed I pick up Vogue less and less, I stopped staying up late watching live streams of designers collections on the runway and have slowly unfollowed most of the designers I aspired to work for someday (I still have Zac Posen and Mara Hoffman though). I also feel like in this I lost my sense of style. I stopped buying clothes and staying on top of the trends. I used to love bold prints and expressive designs but now I have realized that if I am to buy less I need to buy neutral tones and timeless silhouettes.

I used to identify and express myself through the clothes I wear but I have lost touch with that side of me.

This aha moment came to me while listening to Wardrobe Crisis by Claire Press I wrote about the podcasts here. Truthfully I had only listened to a single podcast when I first released that post but now I have been hooked. The thing that I love is that I have stopped feeling guilty for loving the fashion industry. Not the fast fashion industry but the designers and artists who create timeless, beautifully crafted pieces. I am not sure how to combine my love for this in a sustainable and economic way. I think this year I am going to spend a lot more time thrifting and reclaiming my personal style. I just need to accept that minimalism has yet to bring me joy and fulfillment, and sometimes that is ok.

The thing that I truly want to emphasize through my transparency on this blog is that this journey is imperfect and as a broke 20-year old I am not going to get it all right all of the time and neither will you. BUT it is far too important that we must do something, justifying to yourself that you aren’t ready or don’t have the means or time to do this is not an option. We all must find ways to change how we live our lives as consumers. But use this post as a warning not to get too caught up in obsessing about perfection that you lose yourself in the process.

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